May 1st, 2013

Write Dammit

AUGH. It's May!

And that means I need to gin up five outlines for the June NaNo push, plus the outline for the Fearful Symmetries antho.

I do at least have notions for two of those outlines. One will be for the Salt City Steam Writer's Challenge, and the other will be (yet another) story in the sprawling 'verse that encompasses Ben and Alex. That one will be about Alex's butler, who is a mysterious figure and could use some illumination, I think.

I wouldn't mind doing another casefic for Ben, and something about the Moab Monsters that I've played around with in both fanfic and in the second Ben novel (which will never see the light of day, but which I'm also perfectly willing to cannibalize for ideas).

I have a blurb to write for not!Iron Man, too.

So, apparently once you get serious about this writing thing, it never ends.
I'm a terrible person

I am having horrible problems with this outline.

Problems. Plural. Yes.

1. I'm honestly not sure I have the chops to pull it off.
2. Addiction is a sensitive topic. My main character is a nasty creature who hopes this guy stays addicted. I just know I'm going to do something wrong or insensitive here. Hell, the whole concept is insensitive.
3. It's predictable. And I'm not sure how to twist the plot to make it less so.

And yet, I'm loath to leave it and pick something else. I have my first line, last line, and title. I never have those things lined up like that. Back-burnering it seems like giving up, but at the same time I need something I can bang out halfway quickly because the deadline is the 31st and I've got all this other stuff to do, not to mention MisCon at the end of the month.

The concept is different enough to get an editor's attention, I think. Everyone I've pitched this to has gone "Ooo." However, see 1, 2, and 3 above. If I suck at writing it, all the high concept in the world won't save it. Ideas, as we say, are a dime a dozen. Execution is everything.

And nothing else is pinging me. I'm burnt out on serial killers and ghosts. Actual vampires are overdone, and zombies, and werewolves, and I don't want to be pigeonholed as "That lady who writes werewolf fiction." Seven of my last twelve stories starred werewolves, in various incarnations. To be fair, five of them take place in the same 'verse, but still.

So. *siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh* I don't know what to do.